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I am 26 and have been married for 4 years now. First of all, English is my second language so I apologize if my grammar isn?t correct ?. I was in a relationship with my husband ( before married) for about 2 years but we were in a long distance relationship. Then I move to different country ( his country) so that we both can live together. I live with him for 3 months and decide to married. I love him so much and we both love each other. But I want to share my story since I met him and how is my life have changed after I met him. I was humble and free, young, work hard, have a lot of friends. I always go out after finished work clubbing or just chill out in the bar with my friends when I live at my home country. But since me and him entered relationship, he didn?t allowed me to go out at nite club anymore, he didn?t like me to hang out with my male friends too. I was too stupid and in love with him too much that I didn?t realized what this problem could affect my life RIGHT NOW after married with him and being together for more than 5 years. I did told him that I wasn?t happy and want to divorce but he said he will change. I love him so much right and I dont want to lose him, but He make my life so hollow. I feel like I don?t live my life and he control it.. I am feeling kinda depressed that I don't have any friends in this new country that I have lived for 4 years already. I have made a few friends at work but nobody that I can be close to and hang out with outside of work. They always busy when I ask them to hang out just not reliable. I never had a problem making friends when I was growing up but now that I am an adult it is like you can't find a normal person that can relate to your life. I feel like living with him is just make me depressed because his insecure problem, his jealousy and his controlling my life. I really want to be free but I love him so much and cant imagine how my life will be like without him. Sometimes I?m thinking to suicide but I don?t want to hurt him and leave him. I have nothing exciting in my life as my family in my home country don?t even care about me here. I Need serious help on trying to make a close friend and decide to change my life but I don?t know how. I really love my husband but in the other hand I want to be free. I want to have a balance life. I?m stuck.
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